Quiet Time

Tonight my son is sick and as he sleeps I thought that I would take this quiet time to write.  I should probably be grading tests, analyzing them and creating warm-ups and tutoring groups to help my students, instead my mind is racing a million miles a minute thinking about everything.  I feel like I am always thinking and analyzing some aspect of my life, whether it is the gospel principles, my callings, being a mom, school, social life or just the relationships I have with other people. The thing however waying most on my mind right now is the state of our country, and if anything were to happen to our country how ill prepared I would be. I really need to get myself in a position where if anything were to happen I will be able to protect my little family.

I have never been very good with words and expressing myself in words, especially when emotions are involved. I am not exactly sure why that is, I am sure it has something to do with my past or some bad experience I had. It is kind of interesting how a bad experience can shape the way you interact with people and how you express yourself.

This week had its disappointments but it had its achievements as well. I have been working so hard with my students and we had a district test and one of my classes did so poorly. Because they did so poorly I have been consumed with trying to figure out what more I can do to make them successful and I have been looking at what I can change so that they can be more successful. In a way it has made me look at the way I am teaching and think of a better way of teaching. I often wonder if it is that way in life. We go through life just doing what we know best and when given a test we don’t achieve as high as we should or we think we should therefore we reevaluate our lives and change something here and something there and do better the next time. I guess that is why we were sent here to earth is to progress and we can’t progress unless we are willing to change and grow.