The Adoption

July 12, 2011

We had been in Utah for about two weeks and things went smoothly. My sister gave up her parental rights. She later told me that she was thinking about not giving custody, until she saw the two of us together and she knew that she no longer had a relationship with him. Which in itself was another miracle of going to Utah. After she gave up her parental right the lawyer called and we set up a time to meet with the judge. The day that was set up to meet the judge was July 12, 2011. We got to the the courtroom at about 10:15 and the family that had my son before he got to me came and my sister-in-law came. I met with the lawyer and we went into the court room. My son was a little nervous and at the same time really excited. The judge came in and the adoption lasted about ten minutes. I answered all the questions and the judge declared me the legal parent of my son. We changed my sons name to Ferrin and he was very exited about that. After the adoption the judge came down from the stand and we had the opportunity to take pictures with him. It was a very exciting day. I felt so relieved that no one could take him away. It was something I was a bit worried about and I think that is why I was so concerned that his mom could take him back and now I do not have the worry. Now my worry is whether I will be a good enough mother or not. I surely try but it is hard to be a single mom at times. The thing that I struggle with the most with adopting an older child is that he already has issues and he has already been trained by someone else on how to act and I need to retrain him. Of course I try to build on what he has already been taught but I am amazed at how much he really does need help. When I first got him the family before has such a hard time though I did not have issues the same as they did I still have days that I wonder what was I thinking and then I remember all the wonderful things that have come to me because I took the challenge of being a mom.