There are so many questions I could ask myself about the past. What if I didn’t move to Texas and stayed in New York? What if I decided that taking a child on would be too difficult and I never became a mother. What if I became a nurse instead of a teacher? What if this… what if that...? Every decision we make has consequences, good and bad. There is little we can do to change the past so why do we spend so much time dwelling on it? Maybe it is human nature to think back instead of thinking ahead. The most beneficial thing we can do is learn from past mistakes, be grateful for the miracles that have come and to think of all things still possible. There are so many different directions our lives can still go and we have more control of what happens next than what has already happened. Life is a process; our situations are constantly changing, forcing us to make decisions. In this process of change we are developing our character, either we are refining who we are or we are slipping slowly away from becoming who we are destined to become. The wonderful thing about the plan of salvation is that we choose our destiny. Heavenly Father will not force us to make the right choices he can only nudge us here and there with his spirit, however in the end the ultimate decision of where our life will lead is up to us.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
What if...
There are so many questions I could ask myself about the past. What if I didn’t move to Texas and stayed in New York? What if I decided that taking a child on would be too difficult and I never became a mother. What if I became a nurse instead of a teacher? What if this… what if that...? Every decision we make has consequences, good and bad. There is little we can do to change the past so why do we spend so much time dwelling on it? Maybe it is human nature to think back instead of thinking ahead. The most beneficial thing we can do is learn from past mistakes, be grateful for the miracles that have come and to think of all things still possible. There are so many different directions our lives can still go and we have more control of what happens next than what has already happened. Life is a process; our situations are constantly changing, forcing us to make decisions. In this process of change we are developing our character, either we are refining who we are or we are slipping slowly away from becoming who we are destined to become. The wonderful thing about the plan of salvation is that we choose our destiny. Heavenly Father will not force us to make the right choices he can only nudge us here and there with his spirit, however in the end the ultimate decision of where our life will lead is up to us.
Sunday, December 06, 2015
The Last Year
I haven't talked much about what is going on in my life. Things are hard at times however I have been so blessed. I moved over a year ago and have been working on a new campus. I was feeling it was time for me to grow as a professional and as a person. Though I loved the campus I was teaching on and I didn't dislike where I was living, I felt that I was guided to move to another area. I did not understand all the reason why at the time, however looking back I can see the wisdom of changing campuses and districts and moving to this area. I have not only progressed in my profession and I have also grown in my personal life.
This year I am taking a class at Rice University in STEM education for my campus. Though I still love everything about math, I have come to enjoy teaching science and I have seen a great improvement in my teaching of science because of the class I am taking at Rice. I have had a goal to write a grant for a few years and this year I am doing it. I have been working with my fifth grade team to write a grant for STEM education on our campus. It has been scary and exciting all at the same time. I have been learning many great things about stepping out of my comfort zone and becoming a better teaching professional and I have been learning a lot about writing. Writing is not my strength but I have amazing teaching partners that are so helpful and always find a professional way to put my ideas into words that make since and sound good.
My son is doing really good. Last year he had a hard year and I thought we were never going to make it through. I did a lot of praying and pondering and fasting last year to know what I could do to help him have a better year. I spoke to his teachers at least once a week and he made it through. It was a rough year. Coming up to this year I prayed to know what to do and I got this strong impression that I needed to make sure that I sit down with him for an hour every day to do his work with him and I have done that and it has made all the difference. I also told him if he is below a 70% he could have not screen time and that worked miracles. He has kept his grades up and he has begun to enjoy school. So it has been such a better year. My son has also found some great friends in our ward that he can look up to and that are great examples to him and that I am very grateful for.
As for myself, I have come to find some wonderful friends that have been great examples to me and have helped me to be a better person. My life has calmed. The storms still come however I am able to handle them with more faith and with greater strength and ability. Which comes from stepping back and finding out who I am and what is most important in my life and by eliminating negative influences in my life.
I haven't dated anyone in over a year and I haven't really put myself out there because I wanted to take the year to grow and figure things out. To be honest, dating is hard for me, I don't like it at all. Now that does not mean that I think men are horrible, I don't believe that at all, I know there are good single men, I just haven't found the right one for me. It is not because I do not want to be married or have a family, in fact that is one of my greatest desires. I am just don't like dating, it makes me uncomfortable, I feel like I am on an interview, which I am very bad at interviews. When it is time, the right person is going to come along and it is all going to work out. I lost hope of that for awhile but I have that hope back.
I better go. I have not shared much in the last year, so I thought it would be nice to share a little of what I have been up to.
This year I am taking a class at Rice University in STEM education for my campus. Though I still love everything about math, I have come to enjoy teaching science and I have seen a great improvement in my teaching of science because of the class I am taking at Rice. I have had a goal to write a grant for a few years and this year I am doing it. I have been working with my fifth grade team to write a grant for STEM education on our campus. It has been scary and exciting all at the same time. I have been learning many great things about stepping out of my comfort zone and becoming a better teaching professional and I have been learning a lot about writing. Writing is not my strength but I have amazing teaching partners that are so helpful and always find a professional way to put my ideas into words that make since and sound good.
My son is doing really good. Last year he had a hard year and I thought we were never going to make it through. I did a lot of praying and pondering and fasting last year to know what I could do to help him have a better year. I spoke to his teachers at least once a week and he made it through. It was a rough year. Coming up to this year I prayed to know what to do and I got this strong impression that I needed to make sure that I sit down with him for an hour every day to do his work with him and I have done that and it has made all the difference. I also told him if he is below a 70% he could have not screen time and that worked miracles. He has kept his grades up and he has begun to enjoy school. So it has been such a better year. My son has also found some great friends in our ward that he can look up to and that are great examples to him and that I am very grateful for.
As for myself, I have come to find some wonderful friends that have been great examples to me and have helped me to be a better person. My life has calmed. The storms still come however I am able to handle them with more faith and with greater strength and ability. Which comes from stepping back and finding out who I am and what is most important in my life and by eliminating negative influences in my life.
I haven't dated anyone in over a year and I haven't really put myself out there because I wanted to take the year to grow and figure things out. To be honest, dating is hard for me, I don't like it at all. Now that does not mean that I think men are horrible, I don't believe that at all, I know there are good single men, I just haven't found the right one for me. It is not because I do not want to be married or have a family, in fact that is one of my greatest desires. I am just don't like dating, it makes me uncomfortable, I feel like I am on an interview, which I am very bad at interviews. When it is time, the right person is going to come along and it is all going to work out. I lost hope of that for awhile but I have that hope back.
I better go. I have not shared much in the last year, so I thought it would be nice to share a little of what I have been up to.
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