Thoughts

I have a few minutes this evening so I thought I would write. I just feel really good about my life right now. I am very confident that things are going the way that they should. I have been through some rough patches the last few months, however going through them has helped me to look closely at myself and try to fix things so that I can live a better life. I have spent a lot of time on my knees in prayer on what I can do to heal and become a better person.  

This weekend I stayed home and got my house in order. I did some reading and spent some quality one-on-one time with my son.  Which was really nice :-)

I watched General Conference last week and it was really nice. I always learn so much from the talks, there always seems to be something that I need to hear. However I think I received more direction from the women’s conference, the week before, about what I needed to do to help my son and to improve life for myself. The words that were spoken really didn't have anything to do with what I learned. I guess just being there and being in the spirit I learned the things that I needed to improve in my life and I am going to do those things. I got the feeling to step away from the single scene for a while and focus on being the best parent I can. I just focus so much time on planning things and being in the middle of everything going on that I neglect the more important things. I am also going to focus on doing my calling and serving the people in my area the way only I can.  We all have a special way of doing what the Lord wants us to do that is why he chose us right?

Life is good

I haven't written in a long time. There are several reasons however the main reason is that every time I get stated writing something comes up and I never get finished with what I am writing. Life is really good, no life is fantastic. I love my classes this year my students are wonderful. We have been working so hard which has been paying off and feels good because we have been successful in learning. I have been taking a class up at U of H and that has been great. I have been learning a ton of thing about how science works which makes me a better Science teacher.

Being a single mom is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I think if I knew how hard it would be I might have thought twice before becoming a mom, especially a mom to an already grown child, however I would do it again if given the choice. I don't think my heart could allow a child to go without a home when I am well equipped to provide one. Though it is the hardest thing I have ever done, and may be the hardest thing I ever do, the blessings that come are above and beyond what I could have ever imagined. My son has been doing much better, we went to the doctor this week and are trying him on some medication that will hopefully balance him out. It was getting to the point that it was taking him and I three hours to do his homework  and I felt by the end we were both exhausted. He was getting in trouble at school for silly things. I also felt that there were times he was out of control. I have always been hesitant about putting kids on medication and I guess that is why I have waited so long to do even consider it. It has been three day and it has made a world of difference. I can hardly believe how different things are and it has only been three day. I guess with time we will see how it really works and if it will really help him. I better go make breakfast and get to school. I will write more later I have a many great things to share, I have just been busy and haven't had a change.